Wounds that never heal

I've heard of wounds like these before. Never in my darkest nightmares have I ever seen myself having to actually feel such wounds. With all the words she slapped me in the face with, the accusations that were false, the things that she did, the wounds just keep on bleeding and bleeding and it doesn't seem to end. In her eyes, I'm at fault for everything that has happened to us. What's worse, she expects me to just let it go. Easy for her to say when she wasn't the one who had to face all that she did to me.

Now, my rest is never enough for my body. My mind is losing its sanity slowly but surely and I'm slowly unable to see the line between reality and dreams. To keep up a facade of a joker is an uphill struggle for me now. My smiles used to be genuine. Now they're just pure fakes. And this mask that I'm wearing is starting to fall apart. I hope and I pray that I will still be able to keep my sanity intact as long as this last. I hope the day will come where my darkness will slowly become light again. Please heal me, I can't sleep. Though I was unbreakable, this is killing me. Call me everything, make me feel unbreakable. Lie and set me free!!!!